The face of a girl who already woke up late today. She looks at herself in the mirror and decides how she will deal with today. Forget about the mishap and start anew? No. It makes more sense to be upset all day and stress about how to make up for lost time.
I am her. The google calendar that veils my face was supposed to be my saving grace. I was told it would be the key to successful time management. It should organize my thoughts and visually guide my day, but instead, it overwhelms me with tasks and commitments I cannot keep. All placed in never ending rectangles week after week, some in urgent red—telling me to FINALLY finish that painting from three weeks ago. I’ve become visually and figuratively shrink-wrapped in the tool designed to give me peace. It lives on my phone, computer, and journal trying to help me keep up. Rather, I find these well-planned tasks lingering around and following me wherever I go. The anxiety of what I should be doing to finish everything I’m behind on (or will be behind on).
Inspired by Joanne Greenbaum’s thinking with color approach and Philip Guston’s autobiographical paintings injected with humor and pathos, I’ve chosen to examine the role that time and societal pressures play in my life and their effect on my well-being. The stress, sadness, and anxiety caused by the commitments of everyday life can be represented by pink, blue, and yellow, respectively.